After I read last week’s post, I decided that I wanted to take a bit of a different approach to my writing this week. The past 7 days have been a whirlwind of excitement as we shared the news with a few more people, made a trip to the doctor, and made a few small “moves” on the office… because it will become the baby’s nursery. I have so many wonderful things to be grateful for, and I wanted to share them with y’all.
- Nick. Nick is my rock. I knew when we got married, that it was the best decision I had made in my life up to that point, but I had no idea how much my love and admiration for him would grow as we entered this journey into parenthood. He has been nothing but encouraging, curious, helpful, sweet, doting, reassuring, and loving. So far, he has struck the perfect balance between calming me down when I am being ridiculous, and empathizing with me when he knows I am scared. The only reason I feel like I can made this happen is because I have Nick, and I am forever grateful for that – I love you, poopie!
- Jessica. Jessica has already been bombarded with a flood of questions, and she has no idea that I am about to blow her phone up for the next 7 months… and then probably a lot more after the baby comes. I told her that’s what she gets for becoming a midwife. She has generously answered all of my questions in stride, and even offered some more helpful advice – but only after asking if I want to hear it – which is so awesome, especially because when you tell people you’re pregnant these days, they like to share every single frightening or disgusting thing that happened to them while they were pregnant (which I swear I don’t mind, it’s just overwhelming). I am still secretly hoping that Jessica will fly out from Seattle when the baby is on its way so that she can deliver him/her… but for now I will let her and Chelsey enjoy their trip to Burning Man 🙂
- Ultrasounds. Thursday started off as a normal, happy day – turned into a frightening nightmare around 12pm – and then ended in the best day I’ve had pregnant, thus far. Long story short, I saw some spotting when I went to the bathroom around lunchtime, and naturally, freaked the F**K out! I called Nick, who, like the rock that he is, found a place where I could get an ultrasound, while I was crying and hyperventilating on the other end of the phone. We went in at 4:15pm, hoping for the best, but trying to prepare for the worst. Next to the day Nick and I got married, this (the second the doctor pointed out the heartbeat) was the single-most joyous feeling of my entire life. Nick and I both started crying. Our little nugget measured 6 weeks and 4 days with a strong heartbeat of 115 and an estimated due date of April 24th. Thank you, modern technology, for instantly calming my fears.
- La Croix. I already knew I loved sparkling water, but I had no idea that I would crave it every second of every day while I was pregnant. I am so thirsty all the time, and La Croix never lets me down.
- BabyCenter.com. I have probably spent a cumulative 15 hours on this website so far. I don’t just love it for the advice, facts, and stories, but I love it for the women who post what’s new with them. I feel like I have a community, and obviously the anonymity online helps people share more than I think they would with friends or coworkers. I have joined an April 2016 Birth Group (even though I am very well aware of the fact that this nugget could hold on until May [please don’t do that, baby, I can’t wait that long to meet you] because first-time births are usually a week late) and the women with whom I can share concerns and comments are also experiencing the same exact feelings and symptoms that I am experiencing. It helps to know that I am not alone, and that I am not the only one who goes back and forth between starvation and aversion to food.
- Pooping. So far, I have pooped every single morning that I’ve been pregnant. I’ve heard that this might change, but for now, I will appreciate every bowel movement that I have… especially because I am not “showing” but I do have a very bloated stomach (which looks soft and puffy).
- Our siblings. So far, Zach, Brian, and Emma know that we are expecting. We are planning to tell Ellie on Tuesday. The 3 siblings that know have been so excited with our news. They are thrilled with the idea of being aunts and uncles, and already have some ideas as to how they are going to be the “cool” uncle or the “awesome” aunt. Nick and I have felt much closer to our siblings in these past few years than we did when we were growing up, and this new chapter in life is something we are so excited to share with them as well. It brings us a lot of joy to think about our young, hip, relatively responsible brothers and sisters having influence and impact on our child’s life. Hearing them pick out their nicknames was so cute. “Uncle Slim”, “Uncle Bean”, and “Auntie Em” will have lots to teach their niece or nephew, and we can’t wait to see those relationships grow.
Today, we are going hiking and to lunch with a dear old friend of mine (John Fallon) who is in town for a wedding. I am happy, excited, and grateful for this life and this world… and I hope that I can remind myself of the blessings we have when I am feeling anxious. Until next week!